Yes I’m still pregnant….

Obviously I seem to have taken an unintentional hiatus from blogging.  I don’t know why other than I will say pregnancy brain is real this go around and it’s kind of made my brain stop working all together.  It’s amazing I remember to put on underwear in the mornings (and that’s not even accomplished 100% of the time).  I am closing in on this pregnancy and as I sit here and try to think of even one little thing I will miss, I cannot.  Because I.AM.DONE.  Like, so done.  I remember with Asher Wade I had this sadness that came along with my excitement for him to be born.  I loved being pregnant, loved my belly, loved all the kicks and general feeling of him being all mine.  This time?  I am praying every single day that today will be the day when this baby arrives earth-side and I no longer have to waddle around in constant pain.  I hate to complain, and I am normally a very positive person, and obviously I am SO THANKFUL for this sweet baby, but y’all, these last few months have just been a struggle.  I don’t know if it’s the fact that I am almost 5 years older this go around, or the heat (OMG the heat), or that I already have a very active 4 year old to take care of, but I am just slap worn out and usually in pain.  I’ve had so many pregnancy symptoms, common and not so common, that I didn’t experience with AW, like swollenness, carpal tunnel, indigestion, varicose veins, shin splints, joint pain, insomnia, lower back pain, hemorrhoids (sorry if that is TMI), the list goes on and on.  Plus my body just feels so heavy.  I’m still all belly, and it literally feels like I am carrying around a 40 lb dumbbell in the front all the time.  You should see me trying to get out of bed in the morning.  It’s quite the sight.

All that to say, I am just ready:-)

How far along: 38’ish weeks

Due date: Measurements show my due date August 4th, and the baby is measuring a few weeks ahead of that even.
Gender: BOY!! Still not sure on the name yet. We have it narrowed down to a few that we both agree on and will likely make a game time decision when we meet him.
Size of baby: A watermelon and he’s definitely more than the 7 lbs my app says he is.  At my 35 week ultrasound he was measuring 7.5 lbs.  Asher Wade was just over 7 lbs at BIRTH, so needless to say, this baby is going to be bigger.
Weight gain: As of my appointment this morning I have gained almost 40 lbs.
Maternity clothes: Obviously, and some of those I’m not even fitting into anymore.  I’m wearing mismatched pants and a top today, but whatevs.
Sleep: I get 1-2 decent nights a week, which means I’m still up 2x on those nights, but that’s better than the insomnia I have a lot of the other nights.
Movement: Yes, although he has definitely slowed down as he’s starting to run out of room.  He’s rotated from “sunny side up” to now kind of laying on his side, so I generally have a huge lump on the right side of my belly where his back and booty are.  This also means I feel his little feet on my left side.  So sweet.
Cravings: Nothing out of the ordinary, except maybe sweets.  My appetite has gone down and I tend to want very bland, simple things, like bread and fruit.  Most mornings I have 2 hard boiled eggs and a biscuit and then some sort of protein bar and fruit for lunch.  Dinner is random, but often cereal.  I snack on yogurt and pretzels and definitely have my share of dessert mixed in.
Aversions: Not really anything in particular, but there are a lot of times where things that I normally love, just don’t sound good at all. I feel like I rotate 10 or so things, and I’m pretty content with that.
Symptoms: See the above intro for the gist of it;)
What I miss: Sleep and just feeling like myself in general.  And being able to move around and get dressed like a normal person.
What I’m looking forward to: Duh.  For this baby to make his entrance!
Best moment of the week: My regular Friday morning appointments are always a treat because I love getting confirmation that everything looks good.  I also like finding out about any progress I’ve made.  As of this week I am 4 cm dilated and 80% effaced, although he’s still kind of high up.
Thoughts on pregnancy: I honestly can’t believe I haven’t gone in to labor yet.  Maybe everyone thinks that, but considering that I have been dilated for a few weeks now, and my level of activity, and this being my second child, I just assumed it would happen early.  I’m still going strong at Orangetheory Fitness 4-5x per week, but apparently these high intensity workouts haven’t done anything to move things along, or maybe that’s why I am dilated.  Staying active makes me feel so much better.
 Here are some pics…



Pregnancy Journal #2: 32 Weeks

How far along: 32’ish week
Due date: Even though I’ve consistently been measuring a full week ahead, we are going with August 11th because I don’t want to feel pressure to induce earlier
Gender: BOY!! Still not sure on the name yet. We have it narrowed down and I definitely have a favorite, but I think we’ll wait and meet him first.
Size of baby: A head of lettuce, weighing in at almost 4 pounds
Weight gain: At my appointment last week it showed I had gained 31 pounds, which is how much I gained throughout my entire pregnancy with Asher Wade. Yikes! Still have 8 weeks to go too.
Maternity clothes: Oh yeah. And they have to be comfortable maternity clothes. I feel like I’m carrying around a little heater, so the less fabric on me, the better. I recently bought several summery dresses from Pink Blush Maternity that are made of super lightweight fabric, and they have been my favorite. I’ve had to retire most of my heels and wedges thanks to swollen feet.
Sleep: Not great, but not terrible. It’s starting to get a little harder to fall asleep, where before I was pretty much passing out as soon as I turned my Kindle off. Then a lot of nights I wake up once or twice to use the potty, or if I sleep all night I’ll end up waking up really early. I’m tired, but I know I’m about to be really tired in 8 weeks or so!
Movement: Yes, still lots of big movements, like he’s stretching in there or something. He often turns “sunnyside up” which is not a good feeling on my lower back, but I can usually get him to flip back around with some cat-cow yoga moves. Exercise puts him to sleep for awhile.
Cravings: Nothing out of the ordinary. I have noticed that my appetite has gone down, maybe because I don’t have as much room in my belly. Still loving sweets, like cakes and pastries. Lately I’ve been on this scone kick and our cafeteria at work happens to have some tasty ones, which is a good thing and a bad thing. Also craving protein. I love to have anything cold, like fruit (especially pineapple), frozen yogurt (I’ve even been sticking a Chobani Greek yogurt in the freezer for an afternoon snack most days) and popsicles. I’m eating a lot of cereal for dinner as well. Lunch tends to be my most well rounded and filling meal of the day. I’m not overly hungry in the evenings and like to just snack or have cereal.
Aversions: Not really anything in particular, but there are a lot of times where things that I normally love, just don’t sound good at all. I feel like I rotate 10 or so things, and I’m pretty content with that.
Symptoms: Well, I wouldn’t say I’m terribly uncomfortable, but I’m definitely not comfortable. He’s really bearing down and I have a lot of pressure in my lower belly and sometimes in my lower back. I’ve Google’d “premature labor” on multiple accounts. There’s been several times where I’ll be walking through the hallways at work and I have to stop and grab the wall because the pressure takes my breath away, and kind of scares me for a second. Still having a lot of Braxton Hicks, and often my belly gets so tight I have to lie down to get it to relax. The swelling in my feet has gotten a little worse, and I’m still having a lot of pain in my ankles, shins and calves, although it’s primarily on my left side. This is also the ankle where I have the most swelling and spider veins. I try to wear compression socks to bed at night, but they make me even hotter than I already am, so I usually end up stripping them off at some point during the night. They do help though. I sweat a lot more, probably a combo of carrying around a mini furnace and the fact that it’s getting hotter outside. I’m also so tired as of late, and I don’t think this is entirely due to my inconsistent sleep. Yesterday at work I literally had to shut my door and lay my head down on my desk for a little bit. I contemplated going to my car, turning the AC on and taking a nap. I literally struggle to keep my eyes open. Otherwise though, just peachy, lol! Believe it or not, I’m still going strong at Orangetheory Fitness 4-5x per week. I’ve completely retired the treadmill, but I use the strider or spin bike and am still using the rower and doing most of the weight training, with a few modifications. Staying active makes me feel so much better.
What I miss: Wine and sleeping on my belly. I’ve treated myself to my allotted 4 ounces a few times so far and it was fabulous. I also miss being able to jog outside, or even walk more than 10 minutes for that matter, without the stupid pain in my ankles and shins. And I miss being able to get dressed and put my shoes on with minimal effort!
What I’m looking forward to: We have three showers this month that I am looking forward to. I know…how blessed are we?!
Best moment of the week: The 4-D ultrasound we got last week was pretty awesome. They even gave us some short little videos, which were really neat. Also happy to see a healthy, growing baby.
Thoughts on pregnancy: Well, it’s no secret that this pregnancy has been a lot harder than it was with Asher Wade. I remember when I was pregnant with him, particularly towards the end, and as excited as I was to finally meet him, I was so sad at the thought of not being pregnant anymore. I just loved it so much and never really felt uncomfortable. This go around? I would be perfectly happy if this baby came early. Like, really early. I mean, obviously his development and health is of utmost importance, but I’m just over being pregnant. I’m trying to enjoy it since this is likely my last baby, but it’s getting harder. I’m just ready to hold him, but in my arms instead:-)
Here are some pics…

Pregnancy Journal #2: 28 Weeks

{I keep forgetting to post an update! This poor, poor second child…it’s already started.}
How far along: 28 weeks…hello 3rd trimester! Only 12 weeks left!!
Due date: Even though I’ve consistently been measuring a full week ahead, we are going with August 11th because I don’t want to feel pressure to induce earlier
Gender: BOY!!
Size of baby: A cauliflower, weighing in around 2.5 pounds
Weight gain: At my 4/24 appointment I had gained 22 pounds, so I’m guessing around 25 right now?? All I know is that I went back and checked my pregnancy update around this time with AW and I had only gained 14 pounds. Yikes!
Maternity clothes: Loving them. There’s a small handful of non-maternity clothes I can still wear, but that’s dwindling. I’m doing lots of sun dresses this go around. I’ve been burning up lately, which is weird because I am usually always cold. I had Asher Wade right before the weather warmed up, so this is all new for me. Thankfully work has a pretty casual dress code. I’m literally wearing a tank top and linen pants that are borderline pajama pants today.
Sleep: It varies, but for the most part sleep isn’t great. I’ll have a good night, and then several not so good nights. If I fall asleep and stay asleep all night, I’m good, but if something wakes me up I’m screwed and generally cannot fall back asleep. There have been several nights where I’ve just turned on my Kindle and started reading at like 2 a.m. because I’m wide awake. I also tend to wake up well before the alarm goes off.
Movement: It’s really picked up a lot lately, and I’m noticing more BIG movements in there. A lot of the time it feels like he’s repeatedly tapping me from the inside, like he’s playing the drums or something. I’m also feeling him roll over and flip around, which almost takes my breath away. Exercise puts him to sleep for awhile.
Cravings: Nothing out of the ordinary. Still loving sweets (all the cake). Also craving protein. I love to have anything cold, like fruit (especially pineapple), frozen yogurt (I’ve even been sticking a Chobani Greek yogurt in the freezer for an afternoon snack most days) and popsicles. I’m eating a lot of cereal for dinner as well. Lunch tends to be my most well rounded and filling meal of the day. I’m not overly hungry in the evenings and like to just snack or have cereal.
Aversions: Not really anything in particular, but there are a lot of times where things that I normally love, just don’t sound good at all. I feel like I rotate 10 or so things, and I’m pretty content with that.
Symptoms: Some swelling in my feet, which is really annoying. Most of my cute shoes are too tight:( Still having a lot of pain in my ankles, shins and calves, although it’s primarily on my left side. This is also the ankle where I have the most swelling and spider veins, so I’m not sure what’s going on. I talked to my OB about it at my last appointment and he said unfortunately it’s just one of the joys of pregnancy and that it will probably go away shortly after birth. He told me to order some compression socks, which I am waiting on to be delivered, so hoping that will help. Still having a lot of Braxton Hicks, and often my belly gets so tight I have to lie down to get it to relax. I sweat a lot more, probably a combo of carrying around a mini furnace and the fact that it’s getting hotter outside. Lord, help me during June and July. I wouldn’t say I’m terribly uncomfortable, but I definitely don’t feel comfortable;)
What I miss: Wine and sleeping on my belly. I’ve treated myself to my allotted 4 ounces twice so far and it was fabulous. I also miss being able to jog outside, or even walk more than 10 minutes for that matter, without the stupid pain in my ankles and shins. And I miss being able to get dressed and put my shoes on with minimal effort!
What I’m looking forward to: No change from last time…I’m so ready to have a weekend at home where we have nothing on the agenda so we can get some things done! We have had such a busy spring and I’m so ready for some downtime so I can start “nesting.” We have everything for the nursery and now we just need to pull the room together and put on the finishing touches. I still need to pull out all of Asher Wade’s baby clothes, wash and sort, and figure out what else we may need. I also still want to do some major deep cleaning throughout the house.  There are several other house projects I want completed before D-Day as well. We have another busy weekend coming up, but then I am hoping to slow down and start focusing on baby prep. And rest. Lord knows I need to rest. Also excited for Mother’s Day this weekend. Oh, and Matt and I have a little getaway planned for the end of the month! Definitely excited to lay by the pool and relax for a few days.
Best moment of the week: I’ve really loved the increase in movement I’ve noticed this past week. It really is one of the coolest things about pregnancy.
Thoughts on pregnancy: It’s funny how much more I get stopped this pregnancy compared to last time. I literally have people stopping me in the hallways at work, at the store, definitely at the gym, and really anywhere out in public, just to say something sweet about my belly. There’s been a lot more belly rubbing this time, which doesn’t bother me at all, but it’s kind of funny. People just seem to love a pregnant person!

Pregnancy Journal #2: 21 Weeks

How far along: 21 weeks
Due date: Even though I’ve consistently been measuring a full week ahead, we are going with August 11th because I don’t want to feel pressure to induce earlier
Gender: BOY!!
Size of baby: A banana, and at my appointment he was coming in just under 1 pound
Weight gain: 15 pounds…pretty much all still in my belly and thighs
Maternity clothes: Yep, unless it just happens to be a loose fitting dress or tunic that I previously had. I have a lot of Lilly Pulitzer swing dresses and tunics, so they have come in handy. I’ve also picked up several of those body hugging dresses with the ruching on the side. I don’t like my clothing to be big and boxy, or I feel even bigger, but I need the stretch in my belly. There’s not many maternity clothing options in stores, so I’ve been ordering mostly online. Gap, Target and Isabella Oliver have been my go-to brands. I wear a lot of Lululemon and have just gone up a size to accommodate my growing belly.
Sleep: It varies and I’ll have a few good nights, and then several not so good nights. If I fall asleep and stay asleep all night, I’m good, but if something wakes me up (usually Asher Wade as of late) I’m screwed and generally cannot fall back asleep. There have been several nights where I’ve just turned on my Kindle and started reading at like 2 a.m. because I’m wide awake.
Movement: Yes, it has picked up a lot over the last week or so and he is especially active in the evenings when I’m finally resting. My activity during the day seems to keep him in a constant state of sleepiness, so I guess he likes movement. He’s definitely not as busy as Asher Wade was and the jabs and kicks are more sporadic.
Cravings: It still changes day to day, or meal to meal, but nothing unusual. I’ll get something in my head and I usually have to have it. Mexican has continued to be a staple. I’ve had Tazikis on the brain for the past several days and I really need to make that happen soon. I want frozen yogurt a lot, although mainly for the toppings. I pretty much always have some sort of chocolate on hand. I’ve been craving protein as well. Other staples have been bagels, Clif bars, salads with salmon, PB&J, hard boiled eggs and Smoothie King. Oh, and I’m embarrassed to say how many boxes of Girl Scout cookies I have gone through:-)
Aversions: Not really anything in particular…and I’m thankful that coffee finally tastes good again.
Symptoms: Some lower back and hip discomfort, especially after sitting for extended periods, a lot of tightness in my belly, especially in the evenings, a swirl of spider veins around my left ankle and I’ve still been pretty itchy, although that has gotten a little better. Then of course there’s the general exhaustion. I am so wiped in the evenings it’s all I can do not to just get in the bathtub the moment I get home from work and crawl into bed. It’s not so much that I’m tired, but that my body is physically exhausted. The highlight of my day is when I finally crawl into bed and sink into the mattress.
What I miss: Wine and sleeping on my belly. I’ve been wanting a glass of good red wine so bad lately and may end up treating myself to a small portion.
What I’m looking forward to: Finishing up the nursery. We are so much further along than we were at this point with Asher Wade, probably because we already had the furniture and because I had a clear vision in my head of what I wanted it to look like. The shiplap accent wall is all done and looks great and I’m waiting on some artwork to come in to hang on that wall over the crib, and a fluffy white rug and a few other decorative pieces.
Best moment of the week: Receiving a good report at my appointment on Monday and getting some great shots of our little guy. He was so cooperative for the pictures. We brought Asher Wade with us and I loved how excited AW was to see his baby brother on the screen.
Thoughts on pregnancy: It still feels like it’s going really slow. Maybe it felt like this with Asher Wade and I just don’t remember. One thing I know is that I didn’t have this level of exhaustion with Asher Wade, but I have to keep reminding myself that we have so much more on our plates now, simply from the fact that we already have a kid. Plus I know I am working out a lot more than I did during my first pregnancy.
Here’s a few ultrasound pictures from this past Monday and a few bump pictures from the last week or so…

Pregnancy #2 Journal: 17 Weeks

How far along: 17’ish weeks. My OB said we’d have a more accurate estimate at my 20 week anatomy scan.
Due date: Somewhere between August 4th and August 11th…again, hoping to have a better estimate at my next appointment
Gender: BOY!!
Size of baby: an avocado, one of my most favorite foods
Weight gain: Ummm, 10 pounds, lol! I gained really slowly in the beginning, but apparently packed it on over the past month. It’s mostly in my belly, which already feels so heavy, but I can also see it in my thighs. I know I sound like a broken record, but this pregnancy is so different from my first! At this point with Asher Wade I had only gained 4 pounds and I was barely showing.
Maternity clothes: Yep. All the time, with the exception of my regular leggings and some tunics.
Sleep: Better, although I still wake up at least once during the night, or really early in the morning before my alarm goes off. My Snoogle has helped immensely.
Movement: Still some flutters and I’m pretty sure I felt a few random kicks this past weekend.
Cravings: It’s all over the board and changes day to day. I cannot plan for anything because I have no idea what will ultimately sound good come meal time. Last week I was on this breakfast kick and hit up the Whole Foods breakfast bar twice, filling my to-go container with enough breakfast food for that morning AND for lunch later in the day. Mexican food is pretty much a staple. We had friends over Friday night and did a taco bar and it was everything and more. Fruit (especially pineapple), chips (especially with guacamole) and bread (especially cornbread…so random) are staples as well. I crave sushi too, and was happy to have some two weekends in a row. I definitely find myself craving protein. Also still scarfing gummy and fruity candies.
Aversions: Not really anything in particular…it’s just that a lot of stuff doesn’t sound good one day, but then may the next.
Symptoms: Some lower back discomfort, especially after sitting for extended periods, a lot of tightness in my belly, which my OB says is likely from my uterus expanding. A swirl of spider veins have popped up around my left ankle. Maybe TMI, but my boobs are incredibly sore and tender. Good times;)
What I miss: Wine and sleeping on my belly
What I’m looking forward to: Getting started on the nursery (we made a tiny bit of progress this weekend, and various furniture/decorative pieces are starting to be delivered). We are planning to shiplap one of the walls in the nursery, so I’m anxious to get started on that. Once that’s completed we’ll be able to start arranging furniture and setting up the crib. It’s not for another few weeks, but I’m looking forward to our 20 week ultrasound.
Best moment of the week: Getting a good report at my appointment last week and hearing that strong heartbeat.
Thoughts on pregnancy: It feels like it’s going really slow. Maybe that’s because I’ve been more uncomfortable this go around, but I just assumed it would go by fast since we are so much busier than last time and generally have so much going on. It really seems to be dragging though. I’m trying to relish in it and enjoy everything since this will most likely be my last baby, but it’s been a challenge. Maybe it’s the fact that we are so busy all.the.time, and I can’t actually sit back and enjoy the whole experience, or maybe it’s because we’re so busy that we haven’t had time to do any preparations, or maybe it’s still just so early that it hasn’t totally set in yet. I don’t really know, but I’m hoping my attitude softens a little in the coming weeks. I’m also hoping that our weekends will slow down so we can put more focus on preparations.
Here’s a couple bump pictures that I randomly took last week. I’ve got to get better about asking Matt to take pictures of me in the same outfit so it’s easier to tell the progress, but you can definitely see how much I have popped.

Friday Faves: Pregnancy Must-Haves

So here I am, pregnant again, and busting out all of the preggo paraphernalia. Some of these items are favorites from my first pregnancy, but several are ones I have discovered this go around that have made this pregnancy a little easier. Some of them I will continue to use even after this baby is earth side because I love them so much (probably not the Snoogle because I know Matt will be ready to kick the “third person” out of the bed ASAP).

*Snoogle pregnancy pillow. This thing is a lifesaver. Besides my general state of uncomfortable, I really should be trying to stay off my back, and this helps me stay supported on my side so I don’t inadvertently roll over. I love the curved design (as compared to other pregnancy pillows, which are basically just extra large rectangular pillows) because it allows me to stick one end in between my knees, which helps support my belly, and the other end cradles my head nicely. It does take up some space in the bed…almost as much as if there were another person in the bed, but it’s a sacrifice that’s necessary for the short-term.

*Josie Maran 100% Pure Argan Oil and Palmer’s Skin Therapy Oil. This is my stretch mark preventing dynamo and I can attest that it works. I was all belly with Asher Wade and it looks like I am going to be this time as well, which means I gain most of my weight in that area, which also means lots of stretching to accomodate. I use these oils every single night, rubbing all over my belly and hips, and they help keep stretch marks at bay. Plus they moisturize my skin really nicely and don’t have an overpowering scent.

*Dove Winter Care body wash and Curel Ultra Healing lotion. I have had the driest skin this pregnancy. Not sure if it’s just the weather (although we’ve technically had a very mild winter) or something to do with hormones, but my skin has been dry and sooooo itchy. I tried a few different lotions and finally settled on this one since it worked the best at bringing me some relief. I’ve also used all brands of body wash, but have found this one to be the most beneficial right now. My skin feels so much softer when I get out of the shower. Once I layer on my lotion, I am good to go and itch free.

*Good pregnancy jeans. I swear by the Gap Maternity “True Skinny” jeans (with the full panel). Look and fit great and have just enough stretch, without getting too stretched out after wear. Definitely invest in some good jeans, especially if you’re pregnant in the fall or winter.

*Yeah Baby! by Jillian Michaels. This has been my pregnancy book of choice this time, primarily because it offers a lot of great advice and direction for exercising throughout pregnancy, including specific workout routines and do’s and don’t’s. I’ve also really enjoyed the recipes and meal plans. It is full of so much, science backed, information and the medical/diet/exercise contributors provide a lot of valuable insight.

*My beloved Genie bras. Yes, the “as seen on TV” ones. Even these are not the most attractive of bras, I swear they are the most comfortable things ever. With my, umm hmm, changing bust line, the stretchiness of these have been necessary. They never tug or dig into my skin and they are seamless and work under most tops. Plus, they work great for nursing, so I plan to continue to wear them after the baby arrives as well.

*Dum-Dum lollipops. These have helped my nausea so much. I’ve kept a huge bag in my desk drawer since finding out I was pregnant. Several people have advised me to go buy ginger lollipops and supplements, but Dum-Dum’s are super cheap and I find they work just as well.

*My planner, because #pregnancybrain. I have been so forgetful and somewhat scatter-brained this pregnancy. I’ve had to resort to pretty much writing down everything. I use my Outlook calendar at work, but even that hasn’t been foolproof. I have to write everything down in my planner and refer to it throughout the day to make sure I don’t miss anything. My Outlook calendar serves as backup and sends me those reminders 15 minutes before I have something, assuming I remember to create the reminder….

Pregnancy #2 Journal: 14 Weeks

How far along: 14/15 weeks. I’ll be curious to get an update at my next appointment because at my last one I was measuring a week ahead, which means I’m actually 15 weeks now.
Due date:  Somewhere between August 4th and August 11th…hoping we will get a more accurate DD at my next checkup.
Gender: BOY!!
Size of baby: a large lemon, or my fist
Weight gain: overall around 5 pounds I think, definitely all in my belly
Maternity clothes: Yep. Thankfully I have quite a few things from my pregnancy with Asher Wade since I was pregnant during the winter. I was so happy to finally bust out the maternity pants and stop trying to squeeze into my regular ones. I had forgotten how much cute stuff I had. I also have a lot of tunic type tops and leggings in my wardrobe which have come in handy. I pretty much wear Gap Maternity because it fits well and holds up, but doesn’t break the bank. I’m thinking about ordering a few things from the LOFT maternity line to see how I like that brand. Once it starts to warm up I’ll definitely have to get some spring/summer items considering most of my stuff is for cold weather.
Sleep: It varies night to night, but it’s generally not great. I’m exhausted at night and fall asleep easily, but I almost always wake up around 4 or 5 (last night it was 2) and often can’t fall back asleep. I bought a new Snoogle pregnancy pillow, which is helping me get a little more comfortable.
Cravings: The nausea has gotten better, but I’m still limited in what I actually want to eat. There’s a lot of things that I normally love that just don’t sound appetizing. I’m really trying to focus on eating more nutrient dense and balanced meals, but it’s hard when all I really want is grilled cheese, pizza and Mexican. At lunch I’ll literally walk down to the cafeteria and wander around until I find something that sounds ok. It’s pointless to pack my lunch because what may sound good in the morning, likely won’t sound good at all by the time lunch rolls around. I also get really intense cravings for specific things. Like last night I desperately wanted a fried egg sandwich, so that’s exactly what I made. I’m craving chocolate candy bars, like Snickers and Milky Ways, and still loving fruity candies like Skittles. I’ve a couple cups of coffee and they’ve tasted OK, but still not like before where it was literally the first thing I wanted upon waking.
Symptoms: As I mentioned my nausea has gotten better, although I still get little waves of it periodically. I have to watch what I eat or I get really bloated and have some indigestion (I felt horrible after eating a lot of cheesy, fatty snacks at a Super Bowl party last weekend).  Fatigue and general tiredness has gotten better. My hair and fingernails are growing crazy fast. I seriously feel like I have to trim my nails every few days. I’m still a little itchy, but not as bad as a couple weeks ago. I’m wondering if it’s more to do with the cold weather and drier skin?? I started using a really thick lotion (plus argan oil on my belly) and I think that’s helping. My growing belly is getting a little awkward and slowing my movements down and it gets tight towards the end of the day. Overall though, I feel pretty good, just not as great as I did with Asher Wade;)
What I miss: Consistent sleep, having a normal appetite and sleeping on my belly.
What I’m looking forward to: Starting on the nursery now that we know the gender, and getting Asher Wade settled in his new room. Not pregnancy related, but I’m also looking forward to a little overnight getaway with Matt next weekend. Oh, and my mom coming in next week!
Best moment of the week: Making this pregnancy public! It was so fun to have those sweet pictures done for the big announcement. It was also an exciting time when we found out the gender. We did a little gender reveal with some cupcakes for Matt, AW and me and it was really fun to share that moment as a family. I was also thankful to receive positive results from the Harmony testing.
Thoughts on pregnancy: I’m getting to that phase where the sight of any little newborn makes me tear up. Gah. I love newborn babies and I CANNOT wait to hold my own again. I keep wondering if he will look like Asher Wade and if he will be similar to Asher Wade in personality. I’m just curious overall how the whole experience will differ. I just remember how shocking it was becoming parents for the first time, and how much it threw us for a loop adding a newborn to our lives. We literally had no idea what we were in for…ignorance is bliss I guess UNTIL you realize just how unprepared you are. This time I feel like we will have a much better handle on things and know what to expect, at least to an extent. Obviously I understand that this baby could be totally different. Asher Wade was such a challenging newborn and I feel like a lot of that new motherhood joy was stolen because I was just trying to get by without losing it. Besides the obvious shock of being new parents, he had that awful colic that was just incredibly difficult to deal with and manage. While we were in the thick of it all it just felt like it would never end, even though in reality it only lasted 10 weeks or so. It’s reassuring to know now that those challenging moments are fleeting and that season will pass. Knowing that makes me feel so much more at ease and I really think I will savor those newborn days so much more and not wish them away. Especially knowing this will (most likely, although we know God has a sense of humor) be our last baby. I want to soak it all in….purple face crying and all;)

BIG News!!!

So it’s no secret that I’ve been a little M.I.A. on here over the last couple of months. Whenever I have some big news I tend to hold back from a lot of social media, including blogging, because I’m always afraid I’ll slip-up somehow or post something that gives it away. I know that’s totally unlikely, but you know when you’re keeping a secret and you’d rather not take the chance of inadvertently disclosing it, so you avoid all forms of socialization? That may be a little dramatic, but you get my drift.

Anyways. Back to the big news….

I’m pregnant! With another baby BOY! My due date was originally 8/11, but I’ve been measuring about a week ahead, so now we’re looking at 8/4. That puts me at around 15 weeks this Friday. Everything looks great and I have a healthy, strong baby boy growing inside me, and for that we are so thankful. Since I’m 35 (and considered “old” as far as pregnancy goes) I knew there were some added risks, so it was a relief to hear that everything looked perfect. It was recommended that I do that Harmony testing to check for any abnormalities, and it also checks for a Y chromosome in case you’d like to know the gender. So we were able to find out the gender at 12 weeks, which was pretty cool. Can’t believe we are going to have TWO little boys running around our house!

Answers to the usual questions:

Were you guys trying? We weren’t being “intentional” like we were with Asher Wade (tracking my cycle and whatnot), but we also weren’t being “careful.” I stopped taking the pill in September and had a positive pregnancy test around the first few days of December.

I thought y’all were only going to have one kid?! Honestly, we weren’t sure whether we’d have another kid or not, even though deep down I knew I probably wanted one. I couldn’t imagine not having another, going through pregnancy and delivery again….it’s all just so magical. Still though, we were pretty content with Asher Wade and our family dynamic and had never really made a decision one way or the other. Suddenly though I had this strong desire to have another baby. Kind of like when I just “knew” I was ready the first time. I brought this up to Matt one day and he said he felt the same way. So it was definitely meant to be.

How did you find out? I was actually at Orangetheory at lunchtime one day and something just felt off. The workouts are always challenging, but this day felt especially difficult, and I felt very lethargic. My cycle isn’t always 28 days, so even though I was 1 or 2 days late, that wasn’t unusual. Still though, I just knew something was off. As soon as I left Orangetheory I stopped at CVS and picked up a pregnancy test. I drove back to work and promptly took the test in the bathroom stall. That positive sign popped up in literally 5 seconds, clear as day. I took a picture of it and texted it to Matt. Needless to say he was a little shocked to see that text message come through;)

How have you been feeling? Eh. December and January were pretty rough. I was so queasy throughout most of that time. Thankfully I was off work a lot due to the holidays, but there were several days where I just counted the minutes until I could get home to the couch. The weird thing is I never actually threw up. Not once. But I felt like I was going to 24/7, which is sometimes even worse. And then there’s the general exhaustion and tiredness. There were so many nights where I’d come home from work and not leave the couch until I relocated to our bed. I appear to have turned a corner over the last week or so, thankfully, and I’m hoping to have a smoother ride going forward.

Is this pregnancy different from your first? YES! So different. I didn’t really feel sick the first time and I honestly remember thinking I felt even better pregnant than I did not pregnant. I remember telling people all the time during my first pregnancy that I would totally be pregnant for the rest of my life, lol. Not so much this time. Besides the aforementioned nausea, I just don’t feel great in general. I’ve had headaches, and a lot of pressure and discomfort in my belly. Sleep is already a challenge and I’m barely in my second trimester. I’m much more tired, but then again, I have A LOT more going on this pregnancy because I have another child to tend to. Not to mention I’m almost 5 years older. I’ve been so itchy as well, which is random. Then there’s this belly. Right now my 14 week bump is about the size of my 20 week bump with Asher Wade. I started showing so early this go around, which I know is normal, but it still shocked me. No complaint there though….I LOVE this sweet baby bump. So overall, it has just been a very different pregnancy. I don’t mean to sound negative…just being honest. Doesn’t change the fact that I am SO THANKFUL and beyond excited for this new little life.

Did you want a boy or girl? I really didn’t have a strong preference one way or the other. I wanted a girl for silly reasons like buying little girl clothes and decorating a girly nursery and just for something different, but I also wanted another boy because I know what to expect and we already have so much “boy stuff” and I honestly just love being a “boy mom.” I had no idea how much I would love having a little boy until AW came along. He completely stole my heart a million times over, and I have no doubt this new baby boy will do the same thing.

How did Asher Wade react to the news? I’m still not entirely sure how much he actually “gets it.” He calls the baby “mommy’s friend in her belly” and he’s finally starting to understand that he has to be careful around my belly. When I picked him up from school yesterday one of the teachers told me that he had informed everyone that he was getting a baby brother, so obviously he understands a little. He has been very clear that he wants a baby brother. We took him to one of the OB visits and he was fascinated with the ultrasound and watching the baby bounce all around. He got upset when the tech moved the wand and the baby went out of view. Overall, I’d say he’s been rather agnostic about the whole thing, but at least he’s not bitter;)

I’ll be doing regular updates throughout the pregnancy like I did with Asher Wade, so definitely check back for those (probably every other Friday). I’ve been writing posts and saving them in draft form ever since I found out I was pregnant, and I just made them public, so feel free to check them out here, here, here and here.

We had these precious pictures taken this past weekend in anticipation of our big announcement and I just love how they came out. I ordered this sign (in digital format) from a cute shop on Etsy called Coconut Designs and had it printed with a foam backing at FedEx. I love the Valentine’s Day theme. You wouldn’t know it by looking at the pictures, but Asher Wade was a total turd that day and we almost didn’t think we’d get any shots, but thankfully he came around right before we were about to pack it up and call it a day. I just love his sweet smile and spirit.

Pregnancy #2 Journal: 12 Weeks

Due date: August 11, 2017
How far along: 12 weeks
Size of baby: a large plum…one of my favorite fruits:)
Weight gain: overall around 3 pounds
Maternity clothes: I’m still able to rock my looser fitting clothing (mainly tunics and leggings), but I’m basically just wearing that stuff in an effort to hide my bump at work. As soon as I make my announcement to my immediate team (probably tomorrow), I’m going to stop worrying about trying to conceal the bump and embrace it instead! I’ve pulled all of my maternity clothes out of bins and I’m ready to finally feel comfortable. I’m kind of over using a hair tie to close the button on my jeans;)
Movement: Lots of flutters and swooshes and what feels likes swimming in my belly, especially at night. I didn’t feel anything with Asher Wade until around week 16, but I’ve been feeling all kinds of things this go around for a couple of weeks now. No idea if it’s actually the baby swimming laps in there, or just some gas and other stomach stuff. During our ultrasound today that little peanut was moving nonstop.
Sleep: For the love. Why am I already having such a hard time?! I fall asleep pretty quickly, but I almost always wake up around 4 and can’t get back to sleep. I’m really struggling with staying off my back and I know I need to start being careful about that. I think I’ll have to order some sort of pregnancy pillow that will help me stay on my side.
Cravings: Still somewhat limited in what I can/want to eat, but I do find myself craving certain things, like chocolate (I got a Milky Way out of the vending machine yesterday, which is something I would normally never do, but it just sounded so dang good), birthday cake (lol!), McDonald’s strawberry milkshakes, fruity candy like Skittles or as of late those Sweet Tart gummy hearts that come out around Valentines Day, pizza, sandwiches (Tofurkey and Swiss has been my jam, and I also still crave tuna fish salad), Mexican food, crackers and chips, especially Baked Cheetos.
Symptoms: My nausea has gotten better during the day, but it gets bad starting around 4:00 every afternoon and gets progressively more uncomfortable as the night goes on. Coupled with being so tired when I get home in the evenings, I often just lay on the couch until relocating to our bed. I feel bad because I normally enjoy playing with Asher Wade or taking a family walk with the pups, but I literally just feel like I have zero energy and it’s all I can do not to close my eyes. I remember this getting better in the second trimester with my first pregnancy, so hopefully I’ll turn a corner soon. Otherwise, I’m pretty good during the day and have been able to keep up my exercising as long as I do it by lunch time. I’m still really gassy and get bloated easily, but again, hoping that will ease up soon.
What I miss: Consistent sleep and feeling like myself. Totally vain, I know, but I also miss being able to use all of my Rodan + Fields products (retinol isn’t recommended during pregnancy).
What I’m looking forward to: Finding out the sex! I had all the testing done today and now we are just waiting on results. We are planning to do a little gender reveal with some cupcakes for just Matt, Asher Wade and me, and then we will officially make this pregnancy public around Valentine’s Day!
Best moment of the week: The ultrasound today and seeing our wiggly little peanut, bee-bopping all over the place. Heart rate was strong and everything looked great! Feels good to get to that 12-week mark and I can’t believe I’ll be entering my second trimester!
Thoughts on pregnancy: While I haven’t been near as paranoid as I was when pregnant with Asher Wade, I’ve found myself being a little more cautious lately. I was really happy to finally make it to the 12-week mark and have our doctor appointment today, and I hope my anxiety and fears start letting up a little now. I’m anxious to get all those test results, but again, that’s kind of my personality. I’m still a lot less anxious this go around as compared to my first. I’ve also found myself starting to take it easier at the gym and really being careful not to push too hard. I know how important it is to listen to my body. However, I’m determined to keep up my workouts. With my first pregnancy I pretty much just walked, but this time I am doing Orangetheory and more high intense exercise in general. I’m curious to see if I reap any benefit from this during delivery/recovery.
In other news, I am already so in love with this new little peanut! It’s so amazing how quickly you bond. I am fiercely protective already and I just feel this surge of love every time I touch my belly. As difficult as pregnancy can sometimes be, it’s truly incredible to have this life growing inside of me. It’s just such a miracle.
We’ve been so bad about taking bump pictures, but here’s one I snapped in the bathroom at work…
And our 12 week ultrasound picture… 

Pregnancy #2 Journal: 10 Weeks

Due date: August 11, 2017

How far along: 10 weeks
Size of baby: a prune, but hopefully not as shriveled
Weight gain: I honestly have no idea, but I’d guess 1-3 pounds, all in my belly for sure
Maternity clothes: no, but any day now….I have an obvious pooch and it’s pretty much stretchy leggings and tunics right now and I actually did bust out a pair of maternity leggings the other night
Movement: no
Sleep: not great due to the constant queasiness makes it hard and it takes me awhile to get comfortable, and then there’s the 1 or 2 bathroom trips during the night, and for whatever reason I wake up around 5 and can’t fall back asleep
Cravings: I’m still craving tuna salad sandwiches, which is of course one of the things I’m supposed to limit while pregnant, and then there’s the veggies burgers with extra pickles, avocado and fries, Mexican food in general (especially things like the burrito bowls at Moe’s), tomato soup (preferably Panera) and grilled cheese to dip in it, cinnamon raisin bagels warmed up with nothing on them, Skittles and other fruity candies, Wendy’s Frosties, Clif bars (but only the Sierra Trail Mix flavor…random).
Aversions: I still can’t stand the smell or look of coffee, dairy (with the exception of a Frosty), sweets (except for the aforementioned Skittles) and pretty much anything other than what I listed above. It’s hard for me to even open the fridge or pantry sometimes.
Symptoms: queasy pretty much all day everyday, but especially in the evenings, and I’m more tired in general and so flippin’ gassy!
What I miss: feeling normal and not having this nausea all the time
What I’m looking forward to: our third ultrasound in a couple of weeks and finally making this pregnancy public
Best moment of the week: Getting to see our sweet baby at our most recent ultrasound, moving around like crazy, and with a very strong heart beat of 169. We brought Asher Wade with us and my heart about melted as he got so excited when the baby popped up on the screen. He intently watched and asked questions and then got worried when our nurse moved the wand and the baby went out of view. “Where’s the baby?!” He also kept asking me if I was “feeling well” and seemed a little nervous about me laying on the table with the wand on my belly.
Thoughts on pregnancy: I’m kind of in this awkward phase where I really want to get going on preparations, but I don’t quite feel like we are in that “clear zone” yet if you know what I mean. For some reason I feel so much more at ease when I get to that 12-week mark, even though we’ve had two great appointments and everything looked perfect. For example, the plan is to move AW in to what is now the playroom and make his current room the nursery. I’d love to get started on this, but am still hesitant to get too ahead of myself. I’m also ready to tell people at work because I’m getting tired of wearing bulky clothes to hide my growing bump, but again, I feel like it’s too soon. We have told several people (way more than what we did with AW), but I’m ready to make it officially public. I’m technically 12 weeks on the 26th of this month, but we are leaning towards a Valentine’s Day announcement:-)
Here’s my 10-week bump picture and a side by side comparing to my 8-week picture. Not much change.